Who Are You?

After listening to sermons and praying Ive been feeling this overwhelming sense of life and what it is about. Im not going to claim to know everything but I feel deep down that this message has some truth to it.......
I felt so compelled this morning to blog because God has just been clearing my mind and showing me things that leave me thinking, wondering, amazed.....

When you clear back the rubble in your mind, pull the blinds up on your eyes, disinfect your heart, and dust everything off you see a true picture of this life, who you are, and how as humans we have muddied up everything.

We wake up every morning and we consume our lives with bills, our jobs, school, making money, bitterness towards co-workers or anyone for that matter, daily commutes, time (being late for something), our weight, and so much more. All of these things can leave us in a anxiety, stressed riddled state of mind.

Yes, there are bills to be paid, jobs we need to go to, money that has to be made, places we need to be, and we should be healthy BUT....it is not about what we do, it's who we are. Our jobs are merely places we go to make money because we live in a world that has price tags on homes, food, etc. We can love our jobs and go to school to earn a degree BUT that isn't the meaning of life....

I know not everyone will agree with this but for me, personally, I have to live by this standard......

......I have had to learn that if I didnt choose to go back to school to get a degree, that would have been OK. I am on the path to getting a degree BUT Im really looking forward to my job as a mother. I will be an Instructional Assistant on the side and in my spare time make art and try to sell it at art fairs, and even dabble in some writing. I would love to write a book, just because. I think it would be fun to write childrens books and get them put into a book but not neccesarily have them read by everyone in the world. Maybe just share them with friends and family. 

I just want to be a servant of Christ (to the best of my ability), a Wife, a Mother, a Daughter, a Friend, and then a worker.....

The number one jobs we have on this earth are to be followers of Christ, mothers, fathers, daughters, sons, wives, husbands.....

Relationships can be so neglected because we make so many other things more important.

There are days like today where the rain is coming down and it's warm inside. Im inspired to write, read, work on art and I think moments like those should not be ignored. I think those times are glimpses of who we are. They are passions that we have that make US. Sometimes we have to put those things on the backburner because we have jobs, etc...but dont leave them on the back burner too long!

Make sure that each day or as often as possible you let yourself be free, spend time with Jesus in prayer or in the world,  learn how to take time for yourself, engage in relationships,  do simple things like take a walk and smell flowers....

It is possible to slow down. God gives us permission. We need to stop worrying about tomorrow.

This is all easier said than done but I feel in the very center of my heart and soul that it is neccesary and vital. My episodes of depression are true testaments to how putting God on the backburner destroys us mentally and phsically.

P.S. I am not saying that it is bad to have a BIG career, etc. Please dont take me the wrong way. Without people like this we wouldnt have Doctors and Surgeons. Jesus created these people to do what they do. College and big degreees are not bad :) For me personally, Ive learned having a big degree and a career isnt for me and people shouldnt have to feel like it is required to be a good citizen. Whether you work at a Mill, Gas station, Grocery Store, etc...YOU HAVE A PURPOSE! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO FOR A LIVING! Im content with an Associates Degree and working at a school, helping little children read.....thats all :)